Thursday

I thought I was tough.

My hands and feet have been going numb recently. I haven't been able to keep food down, and I don't sleep much anymore.

I have an appointment on Thursday to see what is going on with my liver and my hands and feet. MX can cause liver problems.

What scares me is this is the most aggressive treatment out there, and if it's not working...

I had a deep heart to heart with my friend last night.

WARNING: Morbidity ahead

You cannot die from RA, you die from symptoms of it. It's just constant suffering and pain and annoyances.

Anyway, I went to Cape Cod last night. wanted to get away from everything, which was awesome because I spent over 15 summers there growing up, and I felt so carefree for the first time in a long time.

Pulled up to the beach I used to go to when I was little. Then Matt treated me to a nice dinner out. It was really nice not worrying about anything, even if it was only for a couple of hours.

These posts are getting shorter and more depressing. Harder to type.

Here's to a good news Thursday.